I do want to know what I did wrong, so I can be better in the future.
But right now, it raises hopes that I can fix myself he'll love me again.
And then it dashes those hopes, as I can't do it.
I want to tell him to stop, and not tell me any more reasons for a few more days, as this seems so cruel.
But I still want him to keep e-mailing me.
And for brief moments, I have hopes that I am fixable.